8 March 2011

As the clock struck 12, i realize that im 21 of age. A supposedly turn of time where i am considered as an adult and with the 'green light' to do many other things that only adults can do
            

Yet really i didnt fully feel much different from being 20 or even 19 and etc. I felt the same. The same kind of guy that is still mainly immature, not able to have clear reasoning, a failed courtship and a lack of purpose. However my birthday turned to be extraordinary

Firstly, i will always remember 8 March as the day Ling, my Vietnamese neighbor left for Vietnam for good. I will really miss her alot as she brought joy and laughter in my life

Secondly, problems with the limousine ride and really a sour end to the ride with all the fights and arguments.

Thirdly, i am ALIVE! i wanna thank God for he saved me from a certain incident and really make me appreciate my life


Recently my last birthday celebration was late but a huge surprise and i did enjoy it. However i know i cant face it anymore . I just cannot!!!!!! Life kinda sucks as really it hurts so much more and really i just wanna leave Moscow.

As far as i know the light  of the tunnel is diminishing slowly. Hope is fading, the leaves are flying, the tree so barren and the chillness of the night sums up my current state of affairs right here in Moscow

Free Time

Woah,

finally 8 hours of rest under my belt. It has been one heck of h ectic week with no sleep and lots of work. My eyebags tell the story. This is supposed to be a easier semester but however with the amount of colloqs and the kind of teachers i seriously beg to differ.

13 February is always gonna be a very emotional day for me. I remember it so vividly what had happened 1 year before. It was a first of a series of giving up. I was coming back from London all pumped up but on the 13th i was like a weak deflated balloon. This year 13th i just wanted to be alone and so i did and im sorry for those i couldn't help

Life

  Well its another 6 weeks to go before MASSAD. Still so many preparations to do and not yet many things finalized. Hopefully after today's Change Your World charity concert we can really finalized the deals and all. Hope God can really answer my prayers. One last final push and hopefully everything will flow in

I have got to catch up with other people lives and really i seem not to know what are their current situation and all. i guess i have to find time to really have a heart to heart talk

These are my thoughts today

"How Can You Be Friends With Someone If Everytime You Look At Them It Makes You Want Them Even More?"

That expression always ponders on my mind....

So awkward 2 days ago sitting in the same room. My heart was racing, my hair stood on the perch of each goosebumps, my eyes widened, adrenaline in my body and basically my body in overdrive

I couldn't even bear to look. Haizzz...i dunno my life feels like is breaking apart but your happiness shows whih is why i keep going on...

A great Holiday

 As i sit writing this post, the quietness of the hostel  and the very black and white surroundings makes me feel very strange. I glanced at the time and date and it appears 3:05pm 5th February 2011. So whats the main conclusion:

42 hours till Semester 2

Anyway lets not talk about that. I just wanna share about my trip to Italy




Day 1


Reached Rimini, a seaside resort in Italy. But before even reaching the hotel, we went to San Marino,a mid-evil city. Simply awesome views as the whole San Marino is on a hill. The weather was a bit chilly but overall great. and some shops even accepted roubles for currency. Wanted to find the castle there but not much time


Then we went to our hotel Maena. It was approaching dinner time so we decided to walk and walk until this restaurant called "RIVA" . This place was awesome. I order appolo griglia which was grilled chicken with baked potatoes it was awesome plus.....the manager gave us small garlic bread with toppings, orange juice and cookies as coperto (service charge 1.50 Euro)

San Marino

Church in Marino

2nd day            

Well it was a lazy day. Practically woke up late, did nothing except play FIFA and so on till it was dinner time. Really a wasted day but for dinner we went to a restaurant near our hotel. I ate Spaghetti Arrabiata and 4 Formaggi pizza.

Spaghetti Arrabiata

3rd day

This time we went to Central. Omg and we found a Chinese shop where we could find many many things. So so amazing and the boss introduced us to a nearby Chinese restaurant for lunch and so we went. After lunch we walked around central. We found the famous Arch and we did shopping for a while before heading back for dinner in George. Sad case..the food there was brilliant as the atmosphere

Restaurant owner

Prawn cakes

Lighting and design

Free gift- Chinese Mei Wine

The famous arch

 4th day

Off to Milan we went. Reached there and to our utter dismay Museums were closed. What a pity but we saw a few churches and basically did shopping as Milan is basically shopping paradise. GUCCI, PRADA, LV are basically all there. Ate in McDonald's for lunch. Back again in Riva for dinner and for coperto he gave us 2 extra pizzas and that is indeed amazing 

Castle

Church

5th day

The next day we decided to go to the beach. Kinda of a lovely weather and really my worries just cleared as the breezes washes way. A lot of deep thoughts were in my mind and really enjoyed. After that we headed to Americago and i had Seafood Spaghetti and it was so so so so awesome. It had squid,prawns,fish, cockles, clams everything. After the beach we found a 90% shop and i book 10 textbooks for just 1 Euro...its damn freaking cheap. The girls obviously took more time. We went to BILLA which is equivalent of ashan and bought so much cheap stuff. Later on found a tourist shop and we all bought I LOVE ITALIA shirts. Ended by eating Italian food

In my deep thoughts

Chilling

Yummy

Day 6

Last free day in Rimini. Basically day started late and we went out to central again. Everyone was looking at shoes but not me. I decided to go for a haircut and so i went and it only cost 18 Euro so not so bad. Since it was the eve of CNY, we went for a sort of reunion dinner and that was basically it

After reunion dinner

 Day 7

We went to Rome and words cannot describe it. From Vatican to Colosseum to the fountain. It was just so so amazing. Met so many Malaysian there and even Billy and gang.

Day   8

Ciao Ciao. Time to leave Italy. Haizz so so sad

Conclusion

Really enjoyed myself as i really prepare for this upcoming semester. New sem, and new challenges.

A Funny Conclusion to 2nd Year Sem 1

24/01/2011 is what i see when i clicked on the calender. I somehow cannot simply understand how 1 and half years have past. I never imagine i would last this long here. Today i sit down wondering, is my fate destined to be here?

Well i just finished my exams for both Anatomy and Histology. Quietly very disappointed with my results knowing i could have done better. But i need be to more contented. Russians exams really are dependent on many factors like the bilet you get, the teacher you get, the mood of the teacher and etc, I believe those who even scored low may be as good as those who got 5. Just the luck. But happy because well basically 2year is over for me. Just need to focus on other subjects

However down point, i expected someone to do well. But she was so unlucky. Upon hearing the news, my heart just felt so heavy. I wish somehow i could help but i dont know how to. I wish to be there to comfort the person but.....people keep asking me the same question.........i just dont know...........

Another sad point, my roommate is leaving for Msia for good. Im gonna miss all the moments with him. I hope he is gonna have a good future. Thanks for the memories dude.

Well counting 5 days time to Rome, so excited and cant wait. Seeing alot of people leaving which is funny as as i walk pass i feel the sadness in the hostel as if the hostel has lost its life. 

For now guys ADIOS

Final Moments of 2010

The silent whispers of the night, the tiredness in my body and the many wandering thoughts i have suppresses the atmosphere as i type and dwell on the year 2010.  I have started to really think about each and every year after my great friend, Yi Peng told me it would help. Well i do hope so. So let me analyze my year.

♥ Highlights ♥
1)Going to London and enjoying myself thanks to my aunt and uncle
2)Have no problem with exams
3) Going home in the summer and being with friends and family
4)Serving in MASSAD
5)Being part of C1




:( Downs :(
1)Mum had a heart problem
2) Sister sick with chicken pox
3)Rumours, rumours rumours
4)Something personal
5)Losing people whom i trusted
6) Lost hope of trusting people
7) Olga Semenyek
8)I failed you CD, YP and Sk




As far as i can see, it has not been a good year for me. 2010 is about to me my past and really the emotional roller coaster ride i went through took alot of me and i just wanna stop expecting anything. When you expect, the people around tend to fail you. Im just gonna believe in myself more and do things by the scruff of its neck.




For everyone out there i just wanna wish you guys a awesome HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011

Reality Hurts Real Badly

Have you ever felt alone and nothing makes sense? Thats how i kinda feel right now....facing everything by myself and nothing but tears and a fake smile

Being away from loved ones takes a toll and heavy burden. Everyday i reminiscent about them, wishing i could be with them right now. I just dont know how lovely they are to be with.

In Moscow, facing people has been so disappointing. Especially hostel life. Rumours run and spread like a fire on a bush. People judge people and its an ugly quality. Why i can even trust anyone here. Its so pathetic that this are the traits of future doctors. So how can Malaysia produce doctors with this kind of attitude?

I feel under appreciated. People forget you, forget what you have done for them and even how they have impacted your life. It seems like a distant memory. People just seem to be selfish to just divert the blame elsewhere. Yet i have to be the better man and apologize all the time. Im sick of it.

You think you seem to know people by spending time with them and really trying to foster a kind of meaningful relationship. You make sacrifices and somehow its goes all wrong. In the end I get hurt, always i and no one else. 

This Christmas i just wanna give more and more. I giving everything i have away. I dont have stability to even stop and thinking of what im giving. This Christmas i just wanna be alone and just wonder the " could, might and shall be".